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embrace imperfection.

that's my new outlook. my new mantra. my new thing.

i've had two wedding related nightmares this past weekend, with one where i woke up in tears. i was balling. you know, the newborn, alligator tears that flow? yep. my tears were flowing. i tried really hard to remember what it was about, and it had to do w/friends taking sides and not believing a word i had to say. random. weird. and the second nightmare had to do with not having escort cards for the guests. seriously, my heart was racing and i was sooooooo...sad. not stressed. not freaked out. just sad. sad that this day that i had been thinking, worrying, and planning for the past 13 months, all fell apart because of some stupid escort cards.

that is when i decided to embrace imperfection. i'm not going to stress out about having the most unique, most-talked-about wedding. not going to lose sleep about how there's no real theme to my wedding. not going to worry about how the dessert/candy bar is going to look. who cares, right?

but let me tell you, that it's a LOT harder than it sounds. esp if you're talking to someone who is "that" girl who's had a wedding notebook, scrapbook, binder (you name it. i've got it.) forever. i think i'm obsessed. but you know what? i'm realizing now that maybe less is more. which is why i've decided to thin out my wedding. i've decided to stop reading blogs religiously. which is why i'm no longer allowing myself to give myself more than 10 options. options, kill.

sigh. feels good already.

so...

cheers to new beginnings. and bc today's post is all about not stressing, i'm not going to stress that this is the first post without a picture.

happy tuesday peeps.